08/30/2024
Today is the one day of the year that forces me to face my emotions and loss more than any other this week is a huge build up always to the conclusion that you are still gone.
I question everything we did to try and extend your life and keep you here with us.
We never realized that the decision was never ours to make someone or something greater than us was making the decision and had the plan.
The end came so fast and furious that I don’t feel like I even took a breath for that entire 2 months you were in the hospital and I can’t forget the look on your face when you asked me to take you home it was one of pure innocence and love you never doubted I would do what you needed even though all I had was doubt and second guessing.
The world changed in an instant for all of us that day I didn’t know what to do anymore and all I could do was look after nanny and your mom dad and siblings to the best of my ability which at that time was not nearly strong enough to complete the task at hand.
We got thru the next week and had your service and celebration of life just the way you planned it.
You were always stronger than me and had an inner peace I have never been able to reach. You made the life of everyone that meet you better and fuller so thank you for being in my life and helping me become the man I am today.
I love you Caydence Mcfly Brannaman
Even 6 years later I feel a part of me is missing every day.
