26/02/2026
Today weighs in heavy, 2 years ago today after holding on and trying to keep it together for so long, I went for it. They say it's the easy way out, but when you are in that place it is anything but the easy way out. I think anyone who hasn't been to the absolute depths of their own despair will never understand mental health and cannot fathom why or how it gets to that point.
I sunk 50 zane's with a bottle of straight. Was in a coma for three days, woke for a short period then was out for another 3 days.
Lucky to have my brains, my wits and full motive functions. I spent a month in hospital getting better. Then I went back to the same things, the same person the same struggles that put me there.
Definitely not short of my own perils, behaviours and mistakes.
I've been really lucky to come out of that place the last 12 months, with a lot of love and tough love from the boys I've managed to get better.
I have to thank av and navi for pulling me out of the hole I was in and my Sydney fam for helping me and allowing me the time to heal and get it together in their presence.
I have been able to ween off my medication, get off the alcohol as a coping mechanism and put life back together. Life still has its struggles, but I am finally happy and content with life
IT ISNT WEAK TO SPEAK, but coming from that point where you do speak anything you say can and will be used against you if you arent using the right channels to get help. I don't really believe after being through it in the government agenda toward mental health it has too many holes and not enough of the right support.
There are literally no councillors, psychologists or real professionals you can unpack with, it is literally medicate you, make you compliant and get you out the door. This is not a dis on the nursing staff who do am amazing job with the power they have. Bur the gov system for not giving needed support.
My phone is always on to anyone struggling, all you have to do is send a text or call and I am here. I know your pain, I know your struggle.
