04/01/2024
Such a beautiful day!
I’m Out getting stuff done.
This was a thought I had after a lot of thinking
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Lately I’ve been doing a lot of self Reflecting on why I always try to help people
Certain people don’t deserve help
As Some people are just users and manipulators
I’m just thinking out loud here, I know sometimes I vent this is not a vent
what I realized is I have to start living again
F*ck anyone that says otherwise
I also have to only surround myself with genuine people
It’s a Painful lesson to learn when a person at low point & trying to heal
That being said, Not everyone that comes around is there to help you heal
Some people want to drag you down to their level. Those type of people or, They get a kick out of peoples misery & they want you suffering alone & stuck
Those type of people you have recognize & you have to cut out completely & immediately
Not even a single thought wasted on them, not even to be polite
When you cut yourself off from the world, like I have done & someone you have given a blind eye to is toxic, you don’t always see it, you don’t want to see it so you ignore it. Harsh life lesson
Moving forward I am only focusing on myself, my family & Anyone that has been kind to me I try to return there kindness, but sometimes that kindness is self serving
I was quite upset about someone, I ignored their red flags because I’ve known them for 30 years
No more, no more ignoring peoples red flags just to feel like you still have family
I would rather become hermit than deal with anymore drama
I am trying to only focusing on positives
I will add this
Nobody, no prayer, no God has ever saved me
I have always gotten myself through, I used to have a sweet Angel of a woman who had my back no matter what. It’s an adjustment without her,
Yes I believe in a higher power, the power of will, the power of self, I believe you the person have to be responsible for your own life
From now on I will strive to live & be my best self to honour her memory,
I will keep my distance from people that are toxic
I am only writing this as I don’t want people worrying or wondering about me,
I am also writing & posting this to remind myself of my promise to myself to avoid falling for manipulation from toxic people
Have a great day everyone who took the time to read this thought, I thought out loud